We conclude with the seventh installment of our seven-part series on the seven deadly sins. Today we discuss Pride: the root of all evil!
Pride will infiltrate your soul, leaving no room for anything else. It will drive your thoughts and actions, if you let it. You don’t even know what is happening to you at the time. Unbeknownst to me, that is exactly what happened to me! Only upon reflection, and with a true dose of honesty, can one start the process of moving from prideful to humble. Here is my story:
When I was a child, I wore braces on my feet. I suffered through many surgeries to attempt to correct my clubbed feet. As a result, my classmates designated me as an outcast. The verbal abuse from the other children took a great toll on my self-esteem. The other children made me feel worthless. As a result, I developed an inferiority complex; always feeling the need to prove my worthiness to others; always seeking affirmation of my existence and worth from others. This carried forward to adulthood. Pride – Vanity – had taken root in me, and deep roots nonetheless!
I cared more about how I projected my image, thinking that others would believe what I projected. Yet, they saw me for who I really was, and I wound up being the last person to see me, for who I had really become. Why? Because I bought into the lies the devil conveyed to me: “You’ve got to be #1; if not, you’re worthless.”
Chiseling Away at the Pride
Once I realized that I fooled no one but myself, I came to grips with the fact that my pride got the best of me. Uprooting Pride from my life is a work-in-progress. It started with seeking the Sacrament of Reconciliation. I needed to kneel before God and admit to Him what I now knew about pride within me. I asked God:
- For His forgiveness and mercy, as well as for a clean and humble heart (Humility).
- For Patience with myself as I tried to make positive changes in my life.
- To show me when pride rears its ugly head in my life, so that I can learn from it and change my ways.
- To chisel away at the pride, as a sculptor would chisel on a piece of stone, to make me into someone He could be proud of calling His daughter.
And what am I doing? Well, I am beginning to think of others more and of myself less. I look for ways that I can give of myself, without caring how my efforts might be perceived. I no longer feel the need to be #1 in everyone else’s eyes, because I am loved by God. He made me and finds great value in me. I now garner my self-esteem from God; not from the viewpoints of others.
I hope my revelation assists you in uprooting pride in your life. Of the seven deadly sins, Pride is at the root of all evil, and I only want goodness for you in your life, as well as my own.