About a month ago, I had a dream that changed my life. In the dream, I was alone in a moving car. My legs were embedded between the back of the front passenger’s seat and the actual seat itself. I tried to free my legs so that I could get into the driver’s seat and stop the car. However, I couldn’t break free. I looked out the front window, and I saw that the car was heading down a very snowy, icy and steep hill. The car slid on the ice and drifted off to the side of the road, filled with trees. As I headed straight for a tree, feeling helpless, all I could say was, “Oh God, please keep me safe!” As I said these words, I actually heard myself saying them out loud as I awoke from the dream. My heart pounded!
At that moment of awakening from the dream, I realized that I had an episode of “experiential faith.” Deep down inside, I know God woke me from that dream. By “experiential faith” I mean that I came to physically realize that the Divine Indwelling of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit truly does reside within me. Even in my dreams, God is with me. He will never leave me. I can place all of my trust in Him. Even in this dream, I was not alone!
As I became fully awake, Scriptural passages flashed through my mind with a new, deeper meaning for me. They contained an “experiential” dimension:
“Even the hairs on your head have been counted” (Luke 12:7)
“I will never fail you or forsake you” (Heb. 13:5)
“He is the head of the body, the church” (Col. 1:18)
“I have plans to give you hope, and not to harm you” (Jer. 29:11)
“Whatever you did for one of these least of my brothers of mine, you do for me” (Matt 25:40)
“The Kingdom of God is at hand” (Mark 1:15)
All of these passages have one thing in common: God lives within us. As a result of that dream, I now feel a closer connection to God. Everyone has doubts of faith from time to time. Yet, this dream taught me that I don’t need to doubt any longer about whether or not God really hears my prayers. How can God not hear me when He is living within me? And God’s plan for me is truly perfect. So I can truly trust Him!
My Dream: What Could It Mean?
My self-analysis of this dream tells me that I wanted control over my life. On a theoretical and conscious level, I gave my life to God. I work for Him in bringing souls to Him through my ministry. On that theoretical and conscious level, I know that He is in charge. He sets the agenda, and I do things His way, in His time. However, in reality, at the sub-conscious level, I must still want to maintain some sense of control. Within this dream, God reached into my sub-conscious to enlighten me with the fact that I can trust Him to always be by my side; to provide for me, and to keep me safe. So, during the past month, I got out of God’s way. Now I see new projects on the horizon and wonderful things in my path. More to come on that front in later posts.
Note: There will be no published post this Wednesday, July 27, 2016, as I will be in Chicago attending the Catholic Writers Guild Conference. Posts will resume on Monday, August 1, 2016.